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I'm in desperate need of some good running music. I've been in a rather large rut for sometime and I'm feeling a little like a caged animal without any new music to look forward to on my I-pod.

So I'm asking for any suggestions! Please give....I'll take anything you got...I'm desperate.

That is all.

The Fear

I'm not really sure what I'm wanting or expecting from this post, but having been reflecting on this topic today I've come to some realizations.

I'm Scared!

Being single allowed me to cover up a lot of my insecurities and fears. It was me and me alone. My choices were my own and it didn't matter that I made certain choices out of fear. However being married has really brought a lot of my weaknesses and fears to the surface. A good thing right? Yes, except that I haven't really learned how to deal with my weaknesses or my fears. The majority of my life I've trained myself to ignore these things, which is not healthy. I mean how am I supposed to work on my weaknesses if I don't acknowledge the fact that I even have any. Luckily, I married someone who is quite ok with mistakes and weaknesses and has helped me realize that we both have many flaws and that it's ok. It doesn't make us bad people, it makes us human. These limitations don't have to hold us back, especially when we learn to face them and work on them. Yeah, I still have many fears in my life, but I'm learning that I can look them head on and make choices despite them, and rely more on my faith and Roy.

Domestication

Every once in a great while I feel the need to prove myself to my kitchen. I'm talking real down to earth cooking. Honestly, most days I feel no inclination to throw my efforts towards cooking, especially after I get home from work, the gym, callings, and misc. cleaning around the house. In fact a lot of the time my cooking imagination ends at grilled cheese sandwiches and tomato soup. However, when the muse does descend on me, I can create something pretty great.

I present to you Amanda's Frozen Key Lime Pie, commonly referred to as "Goodness". I made this for my families St. Patty's day dinner. Now while there is nothing really authentically Irish about it, it is green in nature and that's good enough for me. Sadly, I could not partake of the "Goodness" because it contains trace amounts of vanilla ice cream and I couldn't break my lent even for such a lovely pie. 21 days and still going strong!

Everything's amazing, and nobody's happy.

I just think this is fabulous! I feel like this so much when I talk to kids. It's changed so much even since I was a kid. I know I'm apart of the "spoiled" generation, but it's good to remind ourselves every once in awhile how good life is.


p.s Thanks Ang for the link, made my day.

If your wondering

Need a new place to eat out...may I suggest Mark Anthony's in Riverton\Herriman. It's fantastic! It's a bit of a mix between the Pizza Factory and the Olive Garden. Check it out here, you won't be disappointed, promise!

I'm Lent-ing

We are currently in the 40 days of fasting and abstinence that is known as Lent. While traditionally observed by Catholics around the world, I along with some others have decided to incorporate 40 days of abstinence into our routine. This is more of a curious experiment for myself rather than a chance to observe a religious/pagan rooted holiday. I think of Lent as a time to give up a vice, to forgo something that you are allowing to control part of your life. In my case, I have chosen to give up ice cream for the next 40 days. I love this piece of dairy heaven, not to the point that I consider it a vice, but to the point that I can't say no to it. When I'm in it's presence suddenly I have no self control, and I don't like that about me. Consequently, I said to myself, "self, if you can give it up for 40 days maybe I can say no to it during those times when I don' t really need it." So here's to 40 day's of lent-ing and learning to control some of my weaknesses!